I'm gonna stay in bed today. cuz theres no point in getting up.

"im gonna stay in bed today
cuz no one gives a crap
about what i have to say. "

i hate you.
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i wanna kill you
im gunna punch you.
so watch ur back bitch.

I really think im gunna rip out your throat.
your the worst freind ever.
you couldnt give two shits abot me of my feelings.
your a back-stabing lying little piece of shit.
i cant believe you would do that to me.
some friend u are.

I CANT BELIEVE YOU!
YOU KNEW ABOUT THIS!
YOU KNEW I WAS ABSOULTLY CRAZY FOR HIM.
I TOLD YOU. MY FREINDS TOLD YOU
WHAT THE FUCK WERE U THINKING?

SO HERES THE STORYY:

Everyone knows about me and john. espically my friends.

[omg he just signed on]

anyways... theres this girl Leanna right and she was a really

close freind and she KNOWS im totally insanly head over heals for john

and so she starts to talk to him.. [nothing wrong wiht that].. then calling him 24/7..[ohkay whats going on?]..now away messages saying 'Johhnny baybee' [OHKAY WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE?]

Meeah:: so i ask you..leanna? do u like john?

Leanna:: yah. everytime i talk to him more and more.

what the fuck?
Ohkay bitch if thats the way u want it fine..
bring it whore.

so this was over vacation. So i go to school on monday.
and heres where my day just fucking died in a mothereffing abyss.

MONDAY::

so i walk into school.. and im fine. ohkay days so far so good.

and then SHE comes. and she hangs all over him like a fucking puppy dog.

[ohkay im irked.][she gets a look that could kill]

**she doesnt care enuff about me to stop**

ohkay bitch fine.

then lunch.

SHE FUCKING SAT WIHT HIM AT LUNCH!

i was gunna jump across the caffeteria and rip out her throat.

im not kidding.

today sucked. no lie. everytime i talked to him i thought i was going to cry.

ohkay so i go home and go on AIM and he and shes on.

shes being dramatic..someting about having anxiety attack [liar]

so anyways i talk to him.. and i was like

who do u like cuz i NEED to know

and he was like well i like her a little bit but i like u way more..

[yah cuz i believe that]..

we got into this intense convo.

that made me cry which is y were gunna only scratch the suface of this damn thing.

so then i was like fuck this shit and i apoligized [FOR NOTHING THIS IS HER FAULT SHE SHOULD BE APOLIGIZING].. but i did..it was this random ass apoligy that i pulled outta my ass

...she totally bought it.

dumb bitch.

so anyways yah.

and then he went away and he didnt come back till 3 when he IMEd me and i was sleeping

i feel [felt]

fucked over.. used.. useless..

uncared for.. unneeded. unwanted.. ect.

he said sorry like .33543543 times but i dont bye it.

everytime i talk to him it seems he gets like idk sad..

like teh confused sad.

and then today at lunch some random bitch was like

uhm u need to pick a girl

and i was like who the fuck are you?

bitch this not your busineess so fuck off.

[look that could kkill]

good-bye whore.

my day was horrible and i want to crawl into a whole and die..




today suckd
u know what
THIS WHOLE FUCKING WEEK IS GUNNA BLOW LIKE YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE..



I THINK THE WORLD WOULD BE BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME:

Ohmygod guys!

Hey!
i really dont remember the last time i posted.
uhm well ohkay that probably doesnt matter
considering ive done nuthing eventfull! (:

Were gunna just skip to
Yesterday [Friday..night].

FRIDAY NIGHT:

Ohkay so OMG i think yesterday [friday] night was THE best night of my whole life.
it might be helpfull if i told you why..
so here goes.:

Ohkay so its friday night and i went to the movies whit my mother [ya idk it wasnt fun]
and ohkay so we got back at about uhm lets say 5:30ishh. so being me i went straight to
the computer. (: Straight onto AIM and whoelse would be on except John.? ahha
so obviii i IM him.. and we started talking for a lil bit and he said he had to go drop of his sister at a friends house. so i was like ohkay ttul.
ohkay its like 7 now and hes back and im still on AIM. so yea he was like ohkay sorry about that i had to go drop off suzie [sister] at her freinds. and i was like its ohkay. and then he goes well i was actually gunna drop in but i thought maybe u guys were eatting or something. and i was like nahh we havent eatten yet. and he was like oh well then do u think i can come over or is it too late? so i askd
and my dad said 8:30-10 cuz 10 was when he was leaving for work. that works ohkay so i leave to eat dinner. ohkay im back..wonderful. ahha so yea he comes over more closer to quarter of 9 ohkay so we sit down on the couch and here starts my wonderful night!

Ohkay [ahha i say that alot]
so were sitting on the couch watching some random movie nobodys heard of before. ahha
alright so hes being all cute kidding the top of my head and all that.
so like after a b it i was like ohkay screw this!
need less to say makeout session?
well if it was needed i said it. (:
ahha so yah. it wa pretty hawt not even gonna lie to u guyss,

but. were nont going out.. offishally and like i dont even know its like uhm what the eff?
but thats whatever cuz if its gunna stay this way then that ohkay..i guess except theres this girl
and shes a reall snot. she KNOWS i like him alot and now she like started talking to him and now
she likes him and i really want to rip out her throat.
she called last night b4 all that and like i looked at the caller ID and was like oh ew.
and then i remembered his away it said over victorias house. and mine said johns over.
so yea and then she IMed me and i swear i was gunna kill her.
so yea anyways..thats that.

bye
<3victoria

Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection.

its been like a really really long time since ive posted because it was this big thing wiht my password.

since sunday i think it was.. uhm yes that right.

SUNDAY:
so sundayy ii did gawd knows what in the morning because it was all the way on sunday and im slow
so yea i did OOH YEA I REMEMBER!
i dyed my hair in the morning.. im stupid.
ha then i went to AT&T to get my phone fixed (: <3
so yes it is indeed fuctional again <3
and then i talked to john ..13135 times
ahha yea nd then at aboout 7ish he came over.
were not gunna go into details because he stayed a really long time [6:45-10:30]
yea so the way were now thinking of it is were going out but not offically (: <333333

YESTERDAY:
So yesterday was the first offical day oof february vacation. and im not gunna like it was pretty boring. i woke up at about 8 cuz i slept on the couch cuz noone woke me
up and i fell asleep after John left so everyone
came down at 8 and would not shut-up.
so yea i got up and ate breakfast and then i went on the computer.
i stayed on till like along time [hoping john would sign onn] but sadly no. haha so i grabbed my
bike and went to the plaza wiht my sister and freind. we got there got junk food and then we came back home.
then i got to my neighbors house and decided i was craving pizza and there pizza waznt good
so i re-grabbed my bike and we all went back to the plazas pizza place
in the middle of lunch whoelse would call excapt my john?
so yea i was talking to him a little bit and then..yea idk wat we were talking about.
but yea then i went back home and i went on AIM again for a little bit and re-called
john.. i asked him what he was doing and if he wanted to hang out...again
he said yea and he came over at about 4ish. the problem with this is that his freind
mike lives down my street and mike happened to call when he just got to my house and
he was like oh well mike wants to hang out so is that ohkay?
and i was like oh fuck. yea shure fine.
so then apparentently my house is boring so we went down to mikes house.
we played pooll and my dad called me up at about 6 and i could tell john kinda wanted to stay wiht mike
but he did come to hang out wiht me right?..well we could all tell that this was a HUGE delema for me..
so i was like well u decide..and he was like idk
so mike was like well ur the gurl and so u decide and we go along iwht it
so we did that.. john came iwht me [duh].. ha yea then he stayed till like 7 and left but then WENT BACK TO MIKES
to hang out.. and yea i was jelous. im not gunna lie but then he called but i ddidnt pick up cuz i was sleeping.
oh i forgot to mention that his friend drew called while he was wiht me and asked if he wanted to hang out tomorrow [tuesday] and he was like fine cuz he hasnt seen that kid in a really long time so i knew we were most likley not hanging out. that sucks.
so yea thats that and that was really long

Today:
today i woke up at about 10:30 and then went on the computer after breakfast..and did nuthgn.. all day.
ha then john called and i asked if we were hanginng out or not..then answer was...hold on my ohter lines
ringing. fine go pick it up. it was freind [drew] and he asked if he wanted to go to the Fatima High School girls
bastketball game. he said ohkayy and so yea he did that and then about 5ish he came back to his house [ik tht cuz he came back from away to change it] and so yea then his new away messagae said that he was out with drew and some other ppl at mikes house [where/who hes been/been wiht all day] again..jelous.
ha so yea hes calling me tonight..if he doesnt forget and so yea we'll [i'll] keep you updated on that if u guys actually care. ahha so yea ttul

<3victorriaaaa

heyy..!

heyyy!

so yesterday i dyed my hair
and got it layered.

oh and valentines day sucked.
just incase u might like to know.

so yea i like my hair and it only
looks good straight [<3]

i was on the computer and
one of my freinds asked me to
go to a movie and sleepover.
so yea i did. it was fun
[we went to see the unborn]
[it was dumb]

OMG have u guys ever watched
Tool Academy? omg HY-STERICAL.
wow best show everr..

so yea life was pretty much boring.
well i guess i can see that cuz like uhm well
when ur not in school it takes alot
for something exciting to happen..
well..thats what i think.

oh yea jay-jay [ohkay this is dumb
his names john and thats what im gunna call him
from now on]. ohkay so johns coming overr today
idk my parents wanna meet him..(i stopped asking)
ha yea so yea.. ha im kinda bored.


to update or write another later??
<33victoriaa>

get a life and leave my stuff alone.

heyy.
Today was pretty Ohkay.
EXCEPT for this morning.
one of my "freinds" thought it would be funny to take my phone from me when i wasnt looking. well they succeeded and apparently they shut it off. With my phone i have a pin code for it incase some steals it they cant get in. Well instead of asking what my PIN was [which i do tell people] he decided to try to guess it. well he got it wrong on the 1st 2nd and 3rd time and so guess what Im locked out of my phone now.. I was so pissed they were like:
Jake: OH shit idk what this is
Benji: shes gunna kill you
david: who?
jake: torry
me: WHAT?!
david: they have ur phone
[[i thought i left it at home]]
me: oh duh i didnt leave it at home.. give it back.
benji: uhm...
jake: what ur pin code cuz i messed it up and now u need a PUK code.
[[at that sentence i knew i was fucked]]
me: WAHT THE FUCK DID U DO GIVE IT BACK RIGHT NOW AND FUCKING DONT TOUCH MY SHIT.
benji: fiestyy fiestyy
me: FUCKING GIVE IT BACK
[[got it back]]
me: NOW I HAVE TO TAKE IT TO AT&T AND I CANT GET INTO IT SO FUCK U DONT TALK TO ME.
everyone one the bus: dead silence

[[when i got home i called AT&T and guesss what now i fucking have to get a whole new sim card so that means i loose everthing on my phone.
wonderful]]

anyways whutever..i went through my classes slowly and regurally.. then lunch came.. Our school is having a valentines thing and ppl buy roses and give them to someone else..
so yea i got to one from..well likes call him Cody and one from Jay Jay <3
made my day. so yea i drove home wiht jay jay even though im not suppoesd to until my parents meet him. idc i trust him wiht my life and idc wat anyone says/thinks bout taht.
so yea i got home and did jack shit..fun right
so yea that was my day..
ill def keep u updated on when my phone is functional again <3
so yea i was gunna say something else.
oh
TOMORROW IM DYING MY HAIR BROWN!! PHSYCED MUCH??


So yea talk to u laterr
<3torrryyy<3

valentines day

is disgusting! its a stupid holiday that makes you feel ugly and unwanted!
it shouldnt even be a holiday.
everyone gets so hyped up over it and its like well yea i guess its great if ur gorgeous but im not and what do/have i always got?
JACK-SHIT.
ugh i just like wish like this one time that my valentines day wouldnt be so bad and maybe ill look forward to the next one.
Catch my drift?

so yea
Leave me thoughts
on how yoou
look at valentines day

first onee

hey.so as you might know im torry and my freind turned me on to this.
ive never had a diary and never will..so here it is.
some people thinkk im whiny and complain to much well truth is
i really couldnt care less what you think.. im done being completly obsessed about what people think of me its stupid and nobody needs that. dont do it. it stresses you out.
im 14 and hopefully soon to be going out wiht a junior we'll call him Jay Jay kay.but remember him hes important!
ha so hes amazing and he always makes me smile even when i feel like death, he gives me compliments and is and will always be there for me
Your the best and ill be there with u forever<3